2014

I finish 2014 somewhere I didn’t expect to, and with more of a heavy heart than I wanted to.

However, sometimes you need to return to base, gather your scattered mind and then build yourself up to go again, and that’s what I’m doing.
It’s really vital to know when you need to take yourself out of a place or situation, and it’s even more important to put yourself where you know you have more of a chance to recover and be stable.

It’s been an eventful year, most of it I’d prefer not to dwell on. But I got a lifelong dream out of it, and a strong relationship with my Dad, which is what I set out to do in the first place.

I got permanent residency in Australia, I got the relationship with my dad I’ve wanted for as long as I can remember, I got new experiences with an incredible team of people (S/O to my Gladiators!), I got new best friends, new memories with my family and a strength I didn’t know I was capable of.
And I think most importantly, (though unfortunately) because of something terrible that happened, I turned my anger, upset, all negative feelings into starting something that I’m so proud of and can’t wait to officially start.

I came home because I didn’t feel safe in Perth, or really anywhere. I didn’t want to be anywhere in the world and that was so scary, so I will be the first to admit I ran home to mummy, and I’m glad I did. It’s been a whirlwind of emotions for me this year and I just couldn’t handle anything else, I needed some mental rehabilitation. And I feel incredibly at peace in my home, I was able to sleep for days stress free, worry about absolutely nothing and have next to no responsibilities, until I had a bit more capacity to think about things and life, and I knew when I’d have a little freak out I was able to bring myself back to earth a lot faster here than in Perth. For no reason other than this has been my home for 14 years, and it’s the most familiar place in the world for me. I’m totally unashamed to admit that, you need familiarity sometimes.

I’m genuinely excited for 2015. I can’t wait to fully dive back into cheerleading and gymnastics once my injury has healed. &
I can’t wait to get back into a normal life. Though I know it’s going to take time, I’m definitely getting there, and it’s without a doubt all thanks to my family and friends for helping me get there.

So thank you to everyone who got me through 2014 and thank you for the good times it held also, it has been one hell of a year.
Here’s to 2015, I can’t wait.
x

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Geoff Sedgwick
    Dec 28, 2014 @ 10:36:49

    I’m proud that despite all the confusing events of this year, that you have the clarity to express your position in such an orderly and well thought out way; I am thrilled, because more than anything it means that you have discussed with yourself the matters that need attention and have taken both heed and action in your plan to put things right with yourself. I love you my little girl. Dad xxxxxx

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  2. Kirsty Jean Moston
    Dec 28, 2014 @ 13:14:37

    Happy 2015 sweetheart! Lots of love xx

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